Humbled

Hello everyone. So first off, I am sorry that I have not written in the past two days. Things did not go well this weekend on an individual level at the competition. I am not broken, but am severely humbled. I understand that I had a terrible race. It happens. If anything, I have learned, throughout the past few weeks, that I cannot dwell on things that I can not change. Also, I want you all to understand my reasoning behind my next statement. I don't think that I will be writing my blog for a week or so. I need to get things straight in my life. I write with passion, things that I want to live by. Things that I want to achieve. Things that will draw me closer to God. But all of these "things" mean nothing unless acted upon. I still make a lot of mistakes when it comes to living the life that God wants for me to live. I am a victim of the flesh. I still judge, contradict, control, etc. I knew that devoting my life to live like Jesus would indeed be hard, but it should not be as hard as I am making it. The problem is, I am trying too hard. Trying so hard to make things right in my life. But isn't that against what I have been saying? I need to stop trying so hard to make a relationship with God. Truth is, it is already made. The problem isn't with the blueprint...its with the actual act of building. I hope you all take my leave of absence from writing for a few days, not as me giving up, but as me working on myself. I need to translate all of those words that I have written into devoted actions to God. God is working through me, I know He is. This is all still a part of His plan. I do, indeed, keep falling...but everytime, God pulls me back up. This time will be no different. I humbly ask for all of your prayers as well. I have come to find that nothing that comes out of the flesh is more powerful than prayer. I will, of course, be praying for all of you as well.

As for yesterday, today, tomorrow, and forever....head up, eyes forward, breathe...Pray.